I want another baby, I do. Deep in my core, that yearning
for another sweet babe to hold in my arms and call my own is there. And it is all-consuming on some days. But then there are those hesitations. There are those
times when I couldn't possibly imagine having another baby. And here's why.
1. Childbirth. It may sound crazy, but I think I'm actually
more scared of childbirth now that I've been through it. You know the old
adage, "ignorance is bliss"? Well, it couldn't be more true in this situation.
Not knowing how much pain and effort it is to birth a child (not to
mention the recovery process) is easier and now that I do know, it just makes it
much less appealing to do it all over again.
2. Sleep. I finally get a decent amount of sleep on most
nights, and now I want to ruin that by throwing a newborn into the mix? I
remember those sleepless nights and zombie days all too well and I'm not quite
sure I'm ready for them again. Plus, this time there's going to be another
little one demanding all of my attention, as well. That's a lot to handle.
3. Sharing my love. It's a common worry, isn't it? Will I
have enough love to share between two children? The amount of love I have for
my baby is infinite—how can I possibly have more to give to an entirely other
4. My body. I am this close to getting my body back. My baby
has almost completely weaned himself from breastfeeding, I'm back on track with
my workouts, my abs are starting to show again and I'm back to my pre-baby
weight. I'm not sure that I'm quite ready to give my body over to another human
being again. It's a beautiful thing and 100% worth it, but I want my body to
be just my own for a little while longer. Is that selfish?
Now, to throw another baby in the mix would bring me right back to square one. And I'm not sure if I'm ready for that.
5. Babies are expensive! It's true. We're finally at a place
where we are comfortable with our finances, we've figured out how to include
another little one in our family and still afford some fun things, and now I
just want to enjoy this financial freedom for a while. Because what with the
diapers, formula, bottles, burp cloths and everything else that comes with an
infant, babies are not cheap!
6. Time is of the essence. And I never seem to have enough
of it. My to-do lists are always a mile long, the laundry sits in the hamper
for longer than I'd like to admit ,and more often than not, I'm running around
like a chicken with its head cut off. Add another baby, and I feel like I just
might lose it.
7. I miss my husband. I already don't feel like we get
enough one-on-one adult time, just the two of us. Having another baby makes me
scared I may never see my husband again!
8. Two is harder than one. I finally feel like I've got the
mother-of-one thing down. I'm not scared to go in public with him, I feel
confident as a mother and he's easy-going. Now, to throw another baby in the
mix would bring me right back to square one. And I'm not sure if I'm ready for
In the end, though, I know we'll have another baby. I know
there's nothing to be scared of. I know that in life, we make time for what's
important, and therefore we will always make time for each other. And more than
anything else, I know that our love (for each other and for our babies) is
infinite. Let's do this.