Is it really March 1? Has it really been a month since I last updated? Needless to say, this month didn't go as well as I had hoped. We bought a house, so much of the month was spent packing up boxes and getting things ready to leave the farm. My girls got a bad cold, too, so I couldn't go to the gym for 2 weeks in a row (because they couldn't go to the childcare there). Excuses, excuses, I know. For the record, I lost 10 pounds over the course of the 3 months. My pants are too big, my dresses are gapey, and I feel really good.
WHERE I'M AT:
Here's the deal. What I learned through all of this is that food matters. Exercise matters. Self-care matters. When you don't make time for or give thought to those things, there are consequences. Crappy eating makes me feel crappy. Not exercising makes me lazy. Not taking care of myself turns me into a crazy person.
The whole reason I wanted to do this resolution in the first place, was so that I could be a better role model for my girls. And I think I'm heading in the right direction. I'm not weight/body image obsessed, but I'm taking care of myself. I've stopped complaining about my looks out loud. Instead of giving my girls shallow answers for why they can't have certain treats all the time, I've started talking about our bodies with them. We're now having conversations about taking care of our bodies and giving our bodies good food so we can grow healthy and strong. And I feel like they kind of get it, too.
There is still weight to lose. There probably always will be. But you know what? My husband thinks I'm sexy and I've stopped snubbing my nose at my naked body in the mirror. More than anything, I feel capable. I remember that I birthed three babies. I carried them inside of me. I fed them (still feeding one!) with my body. Those are incredible facts and serve as amazing reminders of why I need to take care of myself. This incredible body deserves to be taken care of!
Lastly, I've learned that it's not all or nothing. If I have a bad day of eating junk, I am not ruined forever. If I don't make it to the gym one week, I am not finished. I used to think that. Each day is brand new, leaving me with the ability to make new decisions, BETTER choices, about the food I eat, how I use my body, and how I help my girls learn that they are beautiful, powerful, and capable of amazing things.
I'm eager to continue working on my goals. With Spring right around the corner, it'll be much easier to get active, just because we can finally be outside again! The craziness of the move has died down, which will hopefully give me more time to devote towards thoughtful meal planning and being active with my kids. Plus, we live in town now, making going to the gym SO MUCH easier! If you are a busy mom and want to work on you, you've got to make time for it. Even a 15-minute YouTube workout at home is better than nothing!